Maybe you will never see me again. And maybe i didnt exist anymore. Shall you see me for the last time here. My letter of appreciation to all. Or maybe my life turn upside down. Still lost in the small world with alot of sin.

This is not where i want to be. This is not what i dream for. How can i change for the better of myself. Im drowning deeper than you ever imagine. Things could go different after this.

I wanna stand there. Looking for what i want. Searcing for the missing pieces. Till i get it. But can i succeed? What i want is to have you. The guider, the searcher and the one i can live with.

That someone i know is the person i should be together. She is there but would she turn and look for me? Would she realise im looking at her? Would she come and say hello to me?

Its so complicated. Still confuse. Should i ran away from all this? Because every step that walk, i will turn and look for her. Till now, yet i dont give up. How can i overcome my fear for you?

Every thing that is in my heart now have been enpharsize. Let time make the decision for me. You know where am i if im gone. You know where to look for me if im gone. You will realise it one day my mystery love. You will know it.......